In all honesty I never in my life believed that I would be writing what I am about to write. It is with more than a little sadness and an amazing amount of bittersweet tears that I write this post. Contained within the pages of this blog you will find the chronicle of my life with The Knight. From the very first few weeks to this very last one, they’re all there, my heart and soul, naked and yearning for his attention. Well, the attention didn’t come from him, and in our last times together many promises were made but not kept.
I am back in the town where I was born trying desperately to rebuild a life around cancer and children who scream at me how they hate me. Maybe I deserve it for giving The Knight a second chance (a second chance he didn’t deserve in hindsight, but I thought marriage was forever, so…). Maybe I don’t. One day maybe they will know that I love them but until then I will continue to repeat it on the phone and (if I have to) in cards and letters.
Just some final news…
My childhood best friend/sweetheart has been in constant contact either by email or messenger and he has assured me that he will visit when he gets to come home. It’s purely platonic but I can’t wait until he is home safe and sound. So many troops, so many families who have paid the ultimate price- remember them, please, as you have often remembered me. Those that are and the families of ones who have gone before.
Thank you, all of you, for being you. I owe The Other Mother a debt of gratitude and countless others that have made me who I am this very second. Thank you for believing in me and for loving me. Please, pay it forward. Wherever I am, I promise you, I will be.
All my love and well wishes,
The Butterfly Temptress
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I like to think that I am just your average fat bisexual submissive housewife with a heart of gold. When I'm not battling cancer I can usually be found tackling the joys and pitfalls that come with being not only an ex-wife and a mother but also a sexual abuse survivor. I believe that healing is possible even when it comes to sex lives. And when our house finally falls silent at the end of the day I chronicle my journey for the world to see. My writing covers everything from relationships and marriage to sex advice pieces and sex toy reviews.Soon I hope to begin podcasting and other collaborative projects. And if you didn't know it yet, I'm a comment and email junkie, so don't hesitate to drop me a line.
