Before You Knew Me

Before anyone in cyberia knew me, before I became The Butterfly Temptress, I was something. I was someone special to more than one or two people. Before you knew me, I touched lives and I was in love with my job.

I worked as a nurse for about three years before I met The Knight and only a year after. During the time I was a nurse, I helped save lives. I knew my way around an emergency room and I could look at a patient and know what they needed. I was proud of who I was, proud of my abilities. I was more proud of the fact that my patients liked me.

The last thing I did as a nurse before I met The Knight was to care for children who would probably never live to see their next birthdays. I woke them up every day and helped them with their ROM exercises. I rocked them to sleep every night. When no one else would even step foot inside their houses, there I was with my bag full of tricks and my heart full of love and hope to at least try to comfort them for one more day.

Sometimes I never saw any improvement in them. Sometimes they passed away and I would mourn them, crying as if they were my own family. Other times they would get better. They would change and grow and I’d be convinced that they would grow to be more than anyone else ever gave them credit for. I’d work with them and care for them, singing to them all the while about dreams coming true and answered prayers. I believed in what I was doing, even if no one else did.

Before you knew me, I was a dreamer. A writer of fairy tales and sappy romance novels that always had a happy ending. I would fix my friends up and look for their future mates because I believed that everyone needed someone. I jumped on planes to welcome friends and members of the military home from tours of duty.

Before you knew me, I was unafraid of living and even less afraid of dying.

Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled ’round the world
I slept in castles and fell in love
Because i was taught to dream
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
They were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell

[chorus]
I believe in fairytales and dreamers dreams like bed sheet sails
And i believe in peter pan and miracles
And anything i can to get by
And fireflies

Before i grew up i saw you on a cloud
I could bless myself in your name and pat you on your wings
Before i grew up i heard you whisper so loud
“life is hard, and so is love, child, believe in all these things”
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
And they were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell

[chorus]

Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled ’round the world
And i slept in castles and fell in love
Because i was taught to dream

Beckie says...

U KNOW U ARE STILL SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERSON WHOM HAS SO MUCH TALENT AND KNOWLEDGE…U CAN ALWAYS BRING A SMILE TO MY FACE…REGARDLESS OF WHAT IS GOIN ON…U COULD NEVER IMAGE HOW TRULY SPECIAL U ARE TO ME…KNOW THAT U ARE THOUGHT OF DAILY…AND THAT I LOVE AND MISS U DEARLY…

August 21st, 2008 at 3:48 pm