And So It Goes
Cancer, Life January 29th, 2009I’m very disheartened right now. I’m trying hard not to whine and moan and rant about how unfair life is. I am not going to handle it that way. I’m determined.
I received a call about a half an hour ago from the oncologist. It looks as if the second phase of the clinical trial has been postponed for at least two weeks. So, here we are, once more in a holding pattern with the treatments. The same thing happened last time, so I shouldn’t be surprised. Still, I can’t help but be somewhat disappointed.
And scared.
What if the time without the medication has afforded the cancer an opportunity to spread? And what about the seizures that have returned? How am I supposed to handle those for two more weeks without anti-seizure meds? We’re handling them for now but there are too many unknowns to be comfortable with it.
:::deep breath:::
This is only a minor bump in the road. A small hiccup. Two weeks isn’t very long and I’m sure that things will be fine. I just need to continue to control my thoughts and my reactions to the change of plans.
And so it goes…
January 29th, 2009 at 6:24 pm
As someone who’s read and felt how strong you can be, you’re damned right. This is a hiccup, keep your chin up please!! We have two girls to raise, and they’ll be only better having the two of us together mothering them. I don’t intentionally mean to cut their Dad out of that equation, his love for them is often times surreal to me. However, we’re women and by gender alone are stronger in the way our girls need.
I’m hugging you and I think of you a lot more than I suspect you would ever imagine. Don’t give up hope and hold onto faith.
My thoughts, my love,
The Other Mother