Nothing to say that hasn’t been said. Or written. Or set to music. So, this is where it is. This is where it will stay. I will never ever mention it again.
I’m sorry that I have been so silent. I apologize for being so out of touch. Right now real life doesn’t afford me the opportunity to write.
I’ve been sad and lonely. I’m feeling more than a little introspective, completely wrapped up in myself. Well, not completely but I might as well be.
My Grandmother has been placed in a nursing home. She was admitted directly from the hospital on Monday and it breaks my heart. She isn’t reeady for it and I don’t think she will fare well there.
I feel as if I have let my family down. When I became a nurse I promised I would care for my family. I swore to do it so they would never have to turn to a nursing home and I have let them down. It breaks my heart in ways that you can’t possibly imagine.
Add to it the fact that The Knight and I are…at odds…and it makes for a very difficult place to be. I know we love one another. I know that we’re good together. I just don’t know that he’s happy and that tears me apart. Even if it means not being married to me, I want him to be happy, to love his life.
So there you have it. I’m feeling lonely. Alone. Unloved. And most assuredly, uninspired.
I can’t tell you how blessed I am. Just know that I understand it and I know it. In my heart of hearts, deep in my soul, I know that I am so very blessed.
So, to all of my friends in the CommUNITY, thank you.
I just wanted to take a moment to jump in here and apologize to those of you who have experienced technical difficulties while trying to access my site. I have been in touch with Midphase to let them know that we’re all having problems and that it’s severely hampering traffic. Can you tell that I’m not a happy camper? I ask that you bear with me. There is only so much I can do at this time, but I’m trying.
My site isn’t the only place that I am experiencing technical difficulties.
You see, I am a dog person. I love dogs and we always had them when we were growing up. They were the one thing in my life that made me smile.
Now, however, I am married to a man who prefers cats. Cats love me but I do not love them. I have never been in the home of a cat owner that didn’t smell like the house of a cat owner. I do not, under any circumstances, want my home to smell that way.
Still, we’re married. We have children that love both cats and dogs. To say no way to a cat would be wrong on my part. Just like I feel that it would be really crappy of him to say no to a dog.
So he’s said yes to a dog. But not to the Morkie/Malkie that I so desperately want but to a St. Bernard. Yes, you read that correctly; a Saint Bernard. A small horse that will poop like a small horse. And shed. And drool everywhere. Has he not seen Beethoven???
I don’t want a Saint Bernard. Unless I can have a Morkie/Malkie. Which isn’t happening in this lifetime because they happen to have a thousand dollar price tag attached to them.
Just one more thing on the list of things I’d love to have. And no, we’re not talking about the other one. If we do I’ll just cry and contemplate not being with my husband and that just isn’t acceptable.
This is the best I could do for today. It’s a year old, but it’s me. Maybe by the time next week rolls around I can have some newer photos taken. No promises.
Right now I am so very proud to be an American.
Right now I am sad that there are still so many people who are against same-sex marriages.
Right now I am more full of hope than I have been in my entire adult life.
Thank you, President Obama for giving our country back to us; for encouraging us to take control of our future.
I closed the bathroom door behind me and walked confidently towards him wearing only a new bra. My breasts were tethered and pulled so that they sat high on my chest with perfect alignment and cleavage that begged to be kissed. As he sat on the edge of the bed in only his boxers with a book in his hand I realized that sex was probably the last thing on his mind.
But I wanted it. I wanted him. His hands on my skin; his breath against my back. Nothing would do but his hands holding me in place as he filled me with his still flaccid cock.
He watched me cross the room and smiled at me. My heart raced and my pussy began to tingle. I was very glad that I’d left my panties in the bathroom so that the scent of arousal would reach him before I did.
I heard him say something. I only smiled as he set his book aside and welcomed me into his arms. I threw a leg over one side of him and wrapped my arms around his neck. His mouth met mine and I couldn’t help but smile before I whispered into his ear.
“I am so very wet for you. My pussy is aching to be filled.”
His smile widened and he wrapped his arms around my waist.
“Then let’s see what we can do about that.”
He kissed my mouth as he unhooked my bra and slid it off my shoulders. I sat on his lap for a moment more before dropping to my knees in front of him. I reached for his boxers, anxious to take him in my mouth but his hands grabbed mine and pulled me back to standing.
“Just lean over the edge of the bed.”
I leaned over the edge of the bed with my buttocks thrust back against his now throbbing cock. I wondered if all women reveled in their ability to make a cock hard. Along with bringing him to orgasm with my mouth, making him hard just did it for me.
He slipped inside of me gently and I purred. His hands held my hips and his breath was almost ragged. I knew that he wouldn’t be long. I worked my muscles in a tighten, relax, tighten pattern that I knew would drive him crazy, just to see if I could get him to the edge.
The head of his cock nudged my swollen g-spot again and again. I cried out, climaxed, and was filled with his white hot goodness. Filled to overflowing.
I crawled onto the bed and collapsed, delighting in the feel of his come mingled with mine, leaving me wet and sticky the whole night through.
This book review brought to you courtesy of Perseus Distribution.
As a part-time sex blogger and full time bibliophile, few things excite me like a book about sex. Put before me an erotic anthology like Spanked and I purr like a kitten. Show me a book of quality erotic photography and I will salivate over it.
I received Sex- Take A Walk On The Wild Side and I was enthralled. The book is practically coffee table quality if you don’t have small children or uptight family members in your house on a regular basis. The cover is made of sturdy paper and the inside pages are high quality. You just have to love quality book assembly! (As a side note, I have to mention that this is not a recent book. The copyright is 2002.)
Inside, however, is where the allure of this book truly shines through. With sections titled Dressing For Pleasure, Domination and Discipline, Bondage Games, and Extreme Measures you are sure to find something that appeals to you. I like it all, so I started at the beginning and worked my way towards the end.
One of the first photos I came to, as well as one of the best in the book, is a photo of Rachel Weisz. An amazing actress who also happens to be incredibly photogenic was dressed in some sort of latex or pvc type of catsuit and photographed by Bob Carlos Clarke. It was simple but breathtaking.
There’s something for everyone in this book. Leather? Check. PVC? Check. Piercings, tatts, and other body modifications? Check. Roller skates? Check. All encompassing and laid out perfectly in one book.
Something else that I really liked about this book were the things that I’d never seen before. A woman dressed in what looked like a full body condom. A woman in a zippable rubber ball of some sort. Nurses, nuns, angels, and the divine Dita Von Teese were all included!
Whether you want it to wank or you want it because you love the artistry that is erotic photography I encourage you to get a copy for yourself. Or for your boyfriend. Maybe even one for that cute goth girl in your office as a way to break the ice.
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Editor’s Pick
Njoy Pure Wand by Dangerous Lilly
“I have heard that the G-spot is more swollen and “receptive” after a clitoral orgasm, so I laid there for a bit with the wand still in me, idly playing. Soon, playing in earnest. And then I brought out the Hitachi.
Oh yes, I did.
I combined the two best toys in my arsenal.
Wanna know the result??”
The Editrix
Scarlet Lotus Sexgeek
Vibrators
Lust Objectified - Meet Nea by Domina Doll
Nice Try Durex - Durex play vibrations focus by Epiphora
The Miracle Massager plus Attachment by Rori of Between My Sheets
Buzz 1 by Essin’ Em
Sweet G Vibe and The Mini Mini Mouse by Betty Rocket
G-Spot Rabbit Vibrator by Long Distance Sub
Dildos
Bandito by Scarlet Lotus Sexgeek
Pure Wand from Njoy by Betty Rocket
Natural Contours Energie Kegel Exerciser by Stiletto Diaries
Anal Toys
Double Dare by Agent Ansley
The Nexus Titus by Jack of Writing Dirty
Erotic Books
Yes, Sir by That Toy Chick
The Leather Daddy and the Femme by Scarlet Lotus Sexgeek
Adult Movies
Review of Zack and Miri Make a Porno by Audacia Ray
Perversions of Lesbian Lust by Catalina Loves
The Erotic Witch Project by Hot Movies for Her
Girls Who Lust by Epiphora
Miscellaneous
Penis Cupcake Pan by The Countess - Elizabeth Black
Adult product reviews from the last two weeks from all around the sex blogosphere. Find out more about Pleasurists by visiting the website.
Vibrators
Getting on “Tops” (Pleasure Tops review) by Bad Bad Girl
OhMiBod G-spot and Lelo’s Iris by Hot Movies for Her
The Odyssey Tickler by Scarlet Lotus Sexgeek
Dildos
The Hottie by Amber of Dark, Deep, Deviant
Bandito by Panthera Pardus
Vix Skin - Tex and Bandit Dildos by Buzz Buhrmann
Sex Kits
Cunnilingus Expert Kit by Ellie Lumpesse
The Ego Delight Kit by Thursday’s Child
Erotic Books/Games
The Modern Kama Sutra in a Box by The Butterfly Temptress
Tantric Lover Game and Best Sex Writing 2008 by Domina Doll
Dark Angels: Lesbian Vampire Erotica by Hot Movies for Her
Adult DVDs
Nina Hartley’s Guide to G-spot Sex by Domina Doll on Viviane’s Sex Carnival
Ladies of the Night - Les Vampyres by Hot Movies for Her
The Other Side of Sunny, Flying Solo, and Belladonna’s Foot Soldiers by Don Houston of XCritic
20 Questions by The Horny Housewife
Miscellaneous
FYN Foot Long case by Essin’ Em
VibeReview.com (the Sex Shop I Trust) by Catalina
Vixen Creations by That Toy Chick
The Hardcore Harness by Scarlet Lotus Sexgeek
Universal Lube Review by Domina Doll
Sex Toy Contests
Essin’ Em’s Blogiversary Contest deadline November 1st, 11:59pm, MST
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- I like to think that I am just your average fat bisexual submissive housewife with a heart of gold. When I'm not battling cancer I can usually be found tackling the joys and pitfalls that come with being not only an ex-wife and a mother but also a sexual abuse survivor. I believe that healing is possible even when it comes to sex lives. And when our house finally falls silent at the end of the day I chronicle my journey for the world to see. My writing covers everything from relationships and marriage to sex advice pieces and sex toy reviews.Soon I hope to begin podcasting and other collaborative projects. And if you didn't know it yet, I'm a comment and email junkie, so don't hesitate to drop me a line.
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