I’m sorry that I’ve been so out of touch. I know it drives people crazy and I try so hard to keep people in the know. Sometimes I just can’t keep up.

I’ve had a hard time bouncing back. Between the flu and being in extreme pain I haven’t slept much. We’ve been playing LoTRO quite a bit, so I’ve had something to occupy my time, keep my mind off being so damn miserable. (We’ve joined a pretty good kinship and had the extreme pleasure of meeting some truly awesome people!) Still, it feels like I’m on autopilot a lot of the time.

Remember this post?

Well, it seems that Midphase finally fixed the problem. I’ve had fewer error messages. That’s a good thing.

Also, after talking to a few people and reading the comments left here, we decided against a morkie. We’re still getting the kids a St. Bernard for Christmas though. Having had them before, I know what great pets they make and I know how to care for them, so no worries there. The kids don’t know yet but they’ve been begging for weeks. I’m excited for them.

I’m really struggling right now. I need to finish reviews and I wish I could say that I was in the mood for them, but I’m not. To be honest, I’m too exhausted for sex. That’s not to say I don’t want to get off once in a while but seriously…sex is too much work when your partner won’t do his part. So, no love in the bedroom.

Financially it’s hellish. I’m not doing well on commissions and it’s been quiet on the freelance front. Holidays are always tough anyway, but this year is worse. It’s not a good thing and I hate feeling like I’m drowning.

My babies are growing into such beautiful young ladies. My oldest is stunningly beautiful for a child of almost thirteen. It worries me that she is growing up so quickly. My youngest has the biggest heart and the biggest brown eyes framed with beautiful dark lashes. They’re so bright and so brilliant that it takes my breath away. When I hold them, when they’re close, I feel like myself…like life is right. I am blessed, no doubt about it.

I’m still waiting on the results of my latest scan. I tell myself that no news is good news, but knowing the way I feel, I don’t believe it. My only comfort right now is knowing that the final plans have been made.