Who I Am

If you want to know who I am, please go here and start at the beginning.

1. I’m a Pisces.
2. I’m a hopeless romantic, old fashioned, hippy chick, classic kind of girl.
3. Yes, I still think of myself as a girl because I don’t feel my age.
4. I believe in God but organized religion is a crock.
5. I support our troops.
6. I’m always listening to music, any kind of music, but I have my favorites.
7. I believe in happy endings, happily ever afters.
8. Fairy tales are for children.
9. True love is hard to find but harder to keep.
10. I used to be a Republican but I now realize I’m an Independent.
11. When I was a child I wanted to be a published author and a doctor. Instead I became a nurse but I’m still working on the published author part.
12. Autumn is my favorite season.
13. Christmas is more romantic than Valentine’s Day.
14. I have been on the giving end and the receiving end of golden showers.
15. Love makes me hot, lust leaves me cold.
16. I have had my palm read three times. All three mentioned a man with blonde hair, blue eyes and the middle initial “M” as the man I would marry, the man I would grow old with.
17. The Knight’s middle initial is “M”
18. My girls are my life, the beat of my heart but I worry that they don’t know it.
19. The Knight is the blood coursing through my veins.
20. I have tasted his life source and it was the single most erotic night of my life.
21. The weather affects my moods.
22. I didn’t find my One until I was 28.
23. I repeated 6th grade, not because I was stupid but because I decided I didn’t want to do anything to please Mama or Sperm Donor. Now I know how stupid I was to think it would matter. I hurt myself, not them.
24. The Knight has never sent or given me flowers.
25. A quarter of the way through this list and I am running out of things to tell.
26. I once had a crush on my ninth grade algebra teacher.
27. I’ve read the Necronomicon.
28. I was raised Seventh-Day Adventist.
29. Vegetarian food is good but if I tried it again, my family would disown me.
30. I love milk.
31. I’m a motley mix of Hispanic, Irish, German, and Czech.
32. Romantic comedies and dramas are my favorite kinds of movies followed by horror/suspense.
33. Books are a fetish. I love them, LOVE them, LOVE THEM.
34. Music has the power to cheer me up, make me cry, send me down memory lane, or turn me on.
35. I’m not a slave to fashion. Classics get me through.
36. Infidelity is unforgivable.
37. I don’t believe in abortion but I’m pro choice.
38. When things are too hard to handle, I pray and mentally think of the lyrics to the song “I Can Only Imagine” by Mercy Me.
39. I’m not as strong as everyone thinks I am.
40. I’m a survivor.
41. My grandfather was the most handsome man I had ever seen and his love for my grandmother was amazing. Far from perfect, but their love was real.
42. From my grandparents I learned that true love isn’t always moonlight and roses but it’s always worth it.
43. Being diagnosed with cancer has changed my life- for the better.
44. I believe that people of the same sex should be allowed to marry. Love is love.

45. I don’t believe that child molesters can be rehabilitated.
46. Grey’s Anatomy is my all time favorite television show, followed closely by Friends.
47. I’m a girlie-girl. Hair, make-up, jewelry, the whole nine yards.
48. Marriage is a sacred bond.
49. Sex is sex but making love is amazing.
50. I climax from anal sex alone.
51. Since being with The Knight, it’s almost impossible to climax when I masturbate.
52. I want more.
53. He doesn’t know it, but I have imagined every romantic detail about the two of us. It started long before I met him but it continues.
54. There is no right time to say good-bye…ever.
55. If love is real, there will be passion, not just comfort and friendship.
56. Affairs of the heart are far worse than the physical kind that involve sex.
57. My biggest fear is being played, having my heart broken.
58. I won more than one major spelling be as a child.
59. English and writing have always thrilled me.
60. I want to lose weight. Enough that allows me to look in the mirror and love what I see reflected back at me.
61. I’ve only drawn a line in the sand twice. The first time was easy and it didn’t matter but the second time…the outcome is unknown.
62. I believe in true love, the kind that transcends time, distance, and all other barriers.
63. If I should ever marry again, Canon in D is what I will have played as I walk down the aisle.
64. Once I used to think that I wanted to be the one who loved too much. Now, I think it may be easier to be the one who is loved too much.
65. I have anal retentive tendencies.
66. I am so much like my mother that it’s scary, but it gives me hope for when I grow older.
67. A homely woman who carried herself with grace and dignity is far more beautiful to me than the beautiful woman who does not.
68. Looks don’t matter.
69. I wonder if wanting to share a man’s last name is wanting too much.
70. The abuse from my childhood does not define who I am but it has helped to shape who I have become.
71. Condoms are a necessary evil.
72. I still don’t know who I really am.
73. Vampire legends and stories fascinate and arouse me.
74. A concert is the perfect date.
75. Scary movies turn me on.

76. I have an 80 gig hard drive for my MP3 library.
77. My mother and step-father met on-line after I introduced my mother to Internet dating.
78. I love to dance.
79. The Knight and I shower together as much as possible.
80. Size matters.
81. Watermelon, strawberries, and raspberries are my favorite fruits.
82. Evian water is the best.
83. I’ve been a vegetarian.
84. A girl can never have too many shoes.
85. I prefer going barefoot.
86. I wear a gold butterfly toe ring on my right foot.
87. Military men take my breath away.
88. But not like The Knight does. The Knight makes time stand still.
89. I finally learned to enjoy oral sex but it’s not The Knight’s thing, so I rarely get it.
90. We rarely make love in the missionary position. Though he won’t admit it, I think it’s because I’m too fat and he is turned off by my wobbly bits.
91. I don’t like feeling like I don’t matter.
92. I have voyeuristic tendencies.
93. More than one couple has issued invitations for me to join their polyamorous families and I respectfully declined because I’m a one man woman.
94. Before The Knight, I was a “player” but meeting him changed my wicked ways.
95. My one and only lifetime regret will be not meeting The Knight earlier in life because with all my heart I wish we could have had a child together, a baby of our own, a blessed mix of the best of us in one living breathing being.
96. I wish Sperm Donor would have been sorry for the things he did.
97. When I hear “Insatiable” by Darren Hayes, I get cold chills. Something about the song just moves me.
98. The Knight is my forever love. No one existed before him and no one will exist after him.
99. No one has made me laugh more than he has.
100. I don’t mind sharing my parents with him.
101. This was the single hardest thing I’ve ever had to write.