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Patience
Posted under Love, Life, Cancer by The Butterfly Temptress
I have absolutely none. Handing over control to The Knight and to God are huge deals because I want what I want when I want it. I don’t want to wait for things to change. I don’t want to wait for miracles to happen. If I can steer the car it will go in the direction I want as fast as I want.
The joke is on me. I was wrong. That’s not the way life works. Especially not when it comes to God or D/s relationships.
Thanks to cancer and The Knight I’m learning the lesson. Slowly. Painfully. Step by precious baby step. Still, I’m learning. That’s the important thing, right?
So here I am.
Sitting.
Waiting.
Hoping.
Learning patience.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pEzuC5UoM8g
Continued hugs your way, Gal. Letting go, surrender…sighs. Big.
Surrendering. Submitting.
To a lot of people, this would meant weakness, defeat.
Not to me.
I think that once we are finally able to surrender, fully and completely submit to *one* that is Dominant (no matter what role in life has taken the Dominant path), we truly become the winners, because we will have gained so much strength & inner peace. No longer struggling to be something we’re not. I’ve not quite gotten there myself yet, but am always “practicing”, reaching deeper within myself to reach that goal that I now believe is attainable.
** PLEASE understand, I’m NOT saying to surrender or submit to the cancer. FAR FROM IT. But I think we do have to learn “pick our battles”. Don’t play cancer’s mind games.
I believe it was a wise woman who once told me to “…be the person I want to be treated as…”. No, it’s not always easy, bit is always worth it. Like the saying goes, if anyone could do it, everyone would. You have to think and believe it is possible, before it can be.
I believe that also includes a remission from cancer. You have to believe it is not only possible, but probable. It IS going to happen. Be your own self-fulfilling prophecy.
I love you dear butterfly,
Terry
Jeez, do I feel like a dork for not having kept up with your blog lately. I had no idea about this new round of stuff you’re going through. I’m sending many blessings your way, dear.
And - I’ve updated my reader, like I meant to do months ago, so I won’t miss your posts (and therefore continue to feel like a dork).
Be cool, hunny bunny.
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